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My Heart

My heart rences out
I cry in my dreams
Your face, it haunts me, so it seems
I wanted that for you
You should be the one feeling this guilt
I did nothing wrong
Yet you still haunt me as so
When will this heartbreak end
When will my dreams no longer be nightmares
Maybe once I forget you, I tell myself
But I know that my love shall never cease
I love your face, but it hurts to look
You are my drug and I am hooked
I know that you will never leave my memory
It is my curse, so it seems

Vay-cay

Soon my friends and I are going to Universal. I can't wait! XD

"M"-the full story (continued)

I'm no longer talking to "Perry" anymore, so I can't warn him about her advances. I just hope that he doesn't date her. He can date anyone in the world, just not her. She is obsessive and crazy. "Perry," if you are reading this please do not go with her. I've seen how she's treated our friend that we tried to set her up with, and she is just cruel. I love you and I don't want to see you get hurt.

"M"-the full story

I knew that she liked "Perry," but obviously she is in love with him.
She has been trying to break us up for months. I just let it slide. I cant just say, hey you're not allowed to like my boyfriend. I'm just not that kind of person.
Anyway, as you probably already read in my past blog, that me and him broke up. Well yesterday, the day after we broke up, she decides to ask me permission to date him. Can you believe the nerve of this girl?! She knows that I am in love with him. And she knows that he is in love with me. But that obviously doesn't matter to her.
So I said, "Don't you think that it's a little too soon to ask me that?"
And what does she say? "What if it's not?"
What a slut! At least wait a month or maybe a week, but one day is just pushing it. I cant believe that I am saying this but, I hate her! I hate her so much I couldn't stand to look at her face anymore so I blocked her. If I had her number I would call her and curse her ass out.

"M"

I love him enough to let him go. She loves him enough to try and steal him from me. But it wont work. He doesn't like sluts.

Mix Feelings

----Forwarded Message----
From: atwoodheather@ymail.com
To: atwoodheather@ymail.com
Sent: Tue Sep 21st, 2010 10:02 PM EDT
Subject:

Broke up with "Perry" today. I don't deserve to be treated that way.

My Dream

The roar of the lift off

Then it comes into view from behind the trees

Pinks and blues, purples and oranges, yellows and greens; all a bright neon

They moved and waved from up above

Flying aimlessly into the night

We all watched from the wood

Starstruck, we were in complete awe by its great beauty

Then the darkness progressed, dawn will approach soon

So the dancing lights faded along with the black

Floating higher into the abyss until it had gone

My Dream

The roar of the lift off

Then it comes into view from behind the trees

Pinks and blues, purples and oranges, yellows and greens; all a bright neon

They moved and waved from up above

Flying aimlessly into the night

We all watched from the wood

Starstruck, we were in complete awe by its great beauty

Then the darkness progressed, dawn will approach soon

So the dancing lights faded along with the black

Floating higher into the abyss until it had gone

Depressed

I feel like crying. It's too bad lately I can't. Its just that I haven't seen "Perry" in two months. I miss him so much. But at this point it looks like we're going to be on break again for another month. If he can't be ready by that time, I'll have to leave.
His friend, "M" just won't give it up. So I might have to block her on facebook.
I think "Perry" still has feelings for her but won't admit it. I don't think he wants to be with me anymore.
I want to cry so bad.